tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4609734477228946286.post6795346009511661509..comments2023-05-05T11:16:53.367+02:00Comments on The Adventures of OBB: Drawing Battle PlansTeamobbhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08600496247006586002noreply@blogger.comBlogger10125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4609734477228946286.post-48914441207281883592013-04-11T20:43:18.490+02:002013-04-11T20:43:18.490+02:00Thanks for the fighting words. I am getting more u...Thanks for the fighting words. I am getting more used to my new existence but the emotions shift all the time. I am afraid of the new chemo - because of how I will feel, whether I will get an infection this time and just how this story will evolve. So much to be afraid of but also so much to be brave for. Quite the juxtaposition. Look after my mother for me. I know she is afraid too and finding it hard for her baby to be sick so far away. I feel you guys with me...step by step. Love, OBBTeamobbhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08600496247006586002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4609734477228946286.post-69238450692259394412013-04-11T20:40:41.303+02:002013-04-11T20:40:41.303+02:00Always a pleasure to read comments from you. You e...Always a pleasure to read comments from you. You empathise so well with my plight and I am most definitely using every word I know to tell cancer where it can go! I do find it amazing the actual emotional roller coaster we travel through this process. I am in a better place but it changes daily, sometimes hourly. I hope I can allow myself to have a holiday where i can actually stop thinking about it and lose myself in the moment...in a spectacular way. Love, OBBTeamobbhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08600496247006586002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4609734477228946286.post-38965735539646562482013-04-11T20:38:10.518+02:002013-04-11T20:38:10.518+02:00I do relate to the many things you mention regardi...I do relate to the many things you mention regarding your friend but I find it hard to feel hot these days! A double mastectomy has just really knocked it for me but i will work on it. I do still love clothing and always make an effort to look nice. I would not leave the house without concealer. :) And I do agree with the whole breast cancer thing. I know so many wonderful women and none of them deserves the suffering or the complete theft of their lives. It is ruthless and indiscriminate. I so hope this beast will be slaughtered by the time my daughter is a woman. I will most definitely enjoy my holiday and thanks for reading and supporting me. OBB xTeamobbhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08600496247006586002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4609734477228946286.post-89090970370944742402013-04-11T20:34:16.374+02:002013-04-11T20:34:16.374+02:00Caroline - Yes you are so very right. Too often ca...Caroline - Yes you are so very right. Too often cancer becomes the headliner of our lives, my life. It is so easy to let it happen when it feels like a giant black hole sucking everything you are and all that matters in. I will definitely remind myself where it stands. The holiday is now booked and I plan to leave my cancer baggage at security. I like your idea of planning - important to not be afraid to look forward. I need to get better at that. Hugs, OBBTeamobbhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08600496247006586002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4609734477228946286.post-40469298217338749392013-04-11T20:32:12.119+02:002013-04-11T20:32:12.119+02:00Oh the holiday has been booked Thandi and I cannot...Oh the holiday has been booked Thandi and I cannot wait! Thanks for the healing thoughts. xTeamobbhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08600496247006586002noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4609734477228946286.post-71418113793202966712013-04-10T12:15:11.535+02:002013-04-10T12:15:11.535+02:00Bring on your holiday!! Hugs to your daughter and ...Bring on your holiday!! Hugs to your daughter and strength to your husband. Peace and HEALING to you. Titus 2 Thandihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04682041725252115845noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4609734477228946286.post-36925689431180081492013-04-10T12:00:33.796+02:002013-04-10T12:00:33.796+02:00I truly admire your courage and good thinking amid...I truly admire your courage and good thinking amidst your struggles and nightmares. Despite the fact that you are actually marooned somewhere between shock and denial,your battle plan and reflection in your blog entry is a good strategy to settle down your emotion. It's also a good sign of determination! <br /><br />You have every right and justification to vent out your anger, don't suppress it. But I hope when you look at the mirror next time, simply tell yourself "I am a brave warrior, a conqueror, an experienced chemo veteran, the undefeatable!". A strong will power will help you combat all challenges. You are not alone Kate! Think of yourself as just one of the recurring patients in the BIG HATED C-WORLD who still have to complete some more purification before you will ultimately attain complete survival.<br /><br />Your friend's comment is interestingly encouraging: "You need to welcome this poison into your body because it will save your life. You cannot hate it. You have to love it because it is the best weapon you have got against your enemy." This is such a novelty concept,but for sure, very positive thinking!<br /><br />Planning a holiday with your loved ones before your chemo treatment is a great way to revive your spirit. So just do it, whether it be a week, a day, or just a short break. Go for it! Relax in the sun, run around crazily with your loving daughter,laugh and have fun! Hopefully, you will be charged with refreshed energy and inner vitality to enter the fight.<br /><br />Lift up your heart Kate! Believe in yourself and the Higher Power! Bear in mind that you are always surrounded by love and support, somehow, somewhere. We are with you, every step of your battle!<br /><br />Hugs and Prayer,<br />Survivorsurvivorhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09140087604698531750noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4609734477228946286.post-26888324590424684202013-04-10T05:26:12.859+02:002013-04-10T05:26:12.859+02:00dear kate,
i am so sorry for all you are going th...dear kate,<br /><br />i am so sorry for all you are going through. grieving for losses that you've already gone through and are now faced with again totally SUCKS - BIG TIME. i hope that each time you write through all the emotions you struggle with, it gives you some measure of relief. do for yourself what you need to do - rage, rant, and swear like a longshoreman. there are not enough expletives to express how unfair, how devastating, and how scary this sonnafabitching development is. <br /><br />do what you want, go where you want to go, treat yourself with whatever gives you comfort and happiness. tell those goddamn nightmares to fuck off! <br /><br />good you are surrounding yourself with those you love, enjoying your new home, and excellent you are planning a holiday before treatment begins. please know that hugh and i are sending you and teamobb our most powerful vibes to lift you up and get you through whatever the battle plan ends up being. know you are not alone, and that we, your fearless friends, will be here for you - always.<br /><br />love, XOXOXOXO<br /><br />hugh and karen<br /><br /> tccomments2013https://www.blogger.com/profile/00446394638074551345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4609734477228946286.post-50057038193024463302013-04-10T04:06:22.452+02:002013-04-10T04:06:22.452+02:00It is good to see you have picked yourself up and ...It is good to see you have picked yourself up and is stumbling along. Happy for you.<br /><br />Yes the appearance thing. I used to think people with cancer went around only in flesh and bones with grey skin and dark rings under their eyes. <br /><br />However, my education improved when my friend got cancer. She is 41 and looks so much better now that (post-diagnosis) she is following all the diet and exercise mandates. Her skin is translucent and she is svelte and fit. She believes she has never “looked hotter”. Under the clothes, of course, are the relics of surgery. <br /><br />She says if she stares at herself long enough she is able to dismiss the facts of cancer, and wallow in a bit of fool’s denial … until the next scheduled tests compel relations with reality.<br /><br />Sometimes she talks about the possibility of a ‘mistake’ because she only became ill after the diagnosis and from the cancer killing treatments. Mistakes have happened before. Suppose the doctors and their tests are wrong and she has put herself through double mastectomy and chemo and radiation for nothing? <br /><br />I wonder the same thing because really I cannot understand why a disease so deadly, has to be so sneaky – cells going mad but for years trying to pass themselves off as normal.<br /><br />I don’t know but there is something so ‘not right’ about BREAST cancer, so unjust, dishonest, deceptive and unsporting. It seems to focus on people least deserving of its attention. Good people, careful people, productive people and those just on the brink of the first happiness in their lives. I hate it as if it was a complete sentient entity and not just bits of tissue. Hate it like if it was a living evil person – a serial killer or pedophile. And the hatred is only the more enraging and enervating because of its pointlessness.<br /><br />All the best and enjoy your vacation to the utmost.<br />Lisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15424926592575485814noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4609734477228946286.post-67386364372907210682013-04-10T01:40:31.623+02:002013-04-10T01:40:31.623+02:00I am starting over. At first I was angry reading y...I am starting over. At first I was angry reading your post. I hate cancer. You have just gotten bad news and it is taking you over or so I think. You are letting cancer run you. You need to run things. Push cancer aside. I have been on the cancer bus a long time. First of all, you are number one, then your family, then at the very bottom of the list is cancer. You should not cope with this alone. Fine a support group, a friend who has been through this or going through this, a therapist - or whatever it takes.<br /><br />It is not easy what you are going through but its mind over matter. <br /><br />And go on vacation. Just before chemo my husband and I ran away to the beach for a few days by ourselves. It wasn't long, it wasn't far. But we needed it. Take your family and leave cancer behind someplace warmer - it doesn't matter if its a lodge with a fireplace and a sauna or a tropical beach. Just go. And plan something else for two months from now. And then two months later. And two months later. And two months later.<br /><br />Big hugs and hang in there. Carolinehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14607559482363983911noreply@blogger.com